Who & Why

The 50Sundays Story:

After an abuse, I left home at 17. I lived briefly in a car in and proceeded to struggle through the basics and master chaos.  I spent my whole life trying to cover up being broken as if I could hold back the torrents of water gathering behind the dam.  When I look back on my life, I can see now just how wrong my coping mechanisms were. I was a liar. I lied to myself, and I lied to others in an unskillful attempt to create a happy life in population me.  I thought I was a free thinker, but my thinking had me locked into a jail of my own doing. I tried everything in search of something to heal me -psychedelics, new age thinking, extreme ascetic living, eastern religions, meditation, polarity therapy, hypnotherapy and the list goes on. If it gave me a way to suppress, ignore, distract or disassociate from the pain I was in.

It wasn’t until I lost the thing I loved the most, who was the  last living connection to an innocence long stolen in my youth, that I reached the bottom of  my pit. I realized my unrepentant life, was lost and dying  – just a parody and a lifestyle of some convenient truths assembled together to survive, but not THRIVE.  I reached out for Christ and he met me where I was, as I was.

One morning saying the only prayer I knew, “Lord, make me teachable. Make me innocent.” I fell on my knees screaming in repentance, throwing my firsts against the floor remorseful and terrified of who I had become and where my soul was headed. Had I ever let myself be vulnerable? Had I ever turned off the  fighter, the doer, the women who always ran ahead of God before? No.

As the convulsions of grief came in waves, something took me.  Without any effort of my own, without my own volition, my head pulled back, my eyes lifted heavenward, my mouth opened, and I began to speak words I hadn’t planned,  words I hadn’t formed in my mind first, automatically as if something was speaking through me, ‘Thank you Lord, thank you Jesus, thank you mother and thank you father..” and the auto expression went on for ten minutes as the warmest, safest feeling of newness and peace filled my senses and my broken shell.

Since then God has been working in my life to restore that which was scattered, lost and hopeless. Once diagnosed with hyperkinetic disorder, I no longer flit around, ahead in five timelines, and lost in myself. My mind is quiet and settled.  It’s by the Lords mercy that I can think and feel “me” again.

My story, isn’t remarkable –  it’s a miracle! and it plays out in the lives of Christians every day.  The Lords  infinite love makes possible  game changing comebacks.   A new life. A new story.

I am a writer, speaker, videographer, web designer, geek and editor. My passion is the outdoors and travel. The Lord has blessed me with enough abundance now to blend my talents and do a work for him.

Divine Appointments:

I will be traveling from one state to another in this great nation, capturing stories,  conducting interview, spreading the Gospel and encountering Gods grace and mercy in peoples testimonies and service. I’ll be meeting with ministers, volunteers, missionaries,  authors, Christian intentional living communities,  Christian activists, musicians, spoken word artists, educators and businesses that spread the Good News of Christ our Lord. All I want to know is, what’s your testimony.

Broadcast  & Documentary: 

• A full-length video will be made available as time and editing on the road permits.
• A video brief of every interview will be hosted on 50 Sundays, YouTube and video weekly.
• An Audio pod cast will be made available weekly.
• The 50 Sundays landing page will feature ministries and projects, travel blog posts and story briefs and testimonies.
• At the end of the 50 divine appointments, I’ll be editing all the footage into a full length feature documentary.

This project is dedicated to the walk through a bright valley , without it, I would be spinning out  in the shadows  of inconsistent world views, seeking every convincing person for truth, and not God. Forever, thank you.

This is my story.  I want to know yours.